Out of the Box

There are a lot of things to do, to try, and to explore in this world that will give you happiness for a long time.

Happiness can be experienced in many ways, so as love. Love is everywhere, it's not only found in a partnership of two individuals. It can be expressed and acquired by touching the lives of the people around you in your own ways. What matters most is not how much love you received but rather how much love you've given. The more you connect to people, the more you experience life, the more you acquire love, and the more you get the worth of your existence.

I Am Negative, Are You?

Minsan pala hindi lahat ng negative ay pangit.

Approximately more than 5 years ago, nagpa HIV test ako to make sure I'm safe, and turned out negative, buti naman. The doctor said, I should have myself tested regularly especially kung sexually active ako, ('di naman). Some said, twice a year, others said once a year, then I personally asked a doctor how is it done ba talaga. He said, nagma-manifest ang symptoms ng HIV sa katawan ng tao after five years and that's the only time that the virus can be detected. So naisip ko, eh kung kahapon ako na nainfect, I have to wait pa ng 5 years bago magpa test??? hindi naman daw, prevention is better than cure pa rin daw (which I totally agree) and it depends pa din daw sa resistensya ng katawan ng tao.

Dahil na din siguro sa pagiging busy at katamaran, hindi na nasundan pa ang test kong 'yun until yesterday.

Kahapon, I just realized it's been more than 5 years na since my last test, so I guess this is the moment to shine - nagpa-test ulit ako for HIV screening. I got the result today, at ang bonggah, I AM FREAKIN' NEGATIVE!, so I can shout out loud to the world that I am fucking SAFE!!! no matter how promiscuous I am or not.

You might be wondering why am I sharing this? well, first, gusto ko bakit ba? Second, gusto kong magpaka noble paminsan minsan, I WANNA PROMOTE SAFE SEX!!! hindi lang sa same sex, hindi lang sa mga bading, hindi lang sa mga lalaki, hindi lang sa mga babae, kundi sa LAHAT!!!

Okay fine, ignore my previous statement. Eto nalang, if you are spending hundreds para sa gimik, thousands para mga damit, another thousands para sa mga sapatos, HAVING PEACE OF MIND IS TOTALLY PRICELESS.

After this, I am planning to seriously do this twice a year in different hospitals, para mapraktis ang sinasabi nilang different opinions, para sure na sure.

DISCLAIMER:

I am not having myself tested para gumanda ang tingin ng mga tao about me, para i-please ang mga tao, NO!. I am doing this for ME and me alone.

Oh sya, have a happy, satisfying, safe sex to all! Enjoy life! =)

Caught in the Middle

naramdaman mo na bang parang naka-lutang ka? na parang you're caught in the middle? na parang kasalanan mo somehow pero alam mong hindi? that you did your best pero hindi enough? yung hindi mo alam kung saan ka lulugar? yung clueless ka sa next move mo? --- ako, oo.

Puso at Isip

may mga pagkakataong ayaw mong i-try ang mga bagay na hindi mo dapat gawin, pero ginawa mo pa rin. there are times na akala mo okay, pero hindi pala. sinasabi ng puso mo na hindi mo dapat gawin pero inuutusan ka ng isip mo na ituloy mo lang. sa simula mag-eenjoy ka pero sooner or later, ihihinto mo dahil na-realize mong hindi dapat. pero sa huli ang magka-ibang sinasabi ng puso at isip mo ay magkaka-sundo rin, at alam mong gagawin at gagawin mo pa din yun sa ibang pagkakataon.