They Walk Amongst Us

I'm just 28, but I've met a lot of people, and I know how to identify one from the other. I just like to warn y'all about what I call a "Chameleon". They walk among us, but they're not like us. They will surely break your heart, tear it apart, and will not stop as long as they know there's still a single spark of hope in you that they could feed into. They will suck you dry up to the last drop of respect that you have for yourself.

First, he'll tell you about his dreams and plans, his beliefs about relationships. He will make you feel that he's into serious and long term relationships, he will make you fall for him. Second, when he knows that you're on it, he'll give you chance. Of course you'll grab that chance hoping for the possibilities. And then, he'll show you all the cues and signs that he's into you too, you'll fall for that. You will stay in that stage for a while, waiting, hoping. Chameleons will lie low for a moment, then you'll be clueless, you'll think you did something wrong. Then you will exert extra effort to keep him, he will like it, he will again indulge himself to all the benefits that he could get from you. Somehow you'll be happy because you know that he's having fun with you, only at your own expense. He will enjoy that moment, and he will do everything to keep that moment as it is. But your heart is telling you otherwise. You want more than that, you want confirmation, you want security, you wanna make sure that he's yours. No one can blame you, you're just following your heart, you're just being true to yourself. But sadly, he will refuse, he will bluntly tell you that he wanted to stay with what you currently have for whatever crappy reasons that he could use. Somehow, it will sound he's right, and it's your fault. But if you're going to scrutinize the situation further, you'll see that its a win-loose situation. He's winning, 'cause he get's to enjoy all the benefits but you're loosing, because you don't know where to stand. You're confused, you're troubled. The worst part is, he'll play naive. Despite that he's aware of your feelings for him, he'll be real sweet to you and you'll get crushed to death by the thought that it's nothing for him, that you're just a special friend.

Then you'll find yourself crying, hurting from the fact that you were rejected. And realization comes into the picture, you'll try to let go of your feelings for him, it will be hard, but it will be even harder, because as you are trying to let go of him, he will start giving you another hope, another smile, another reason for you to stay and keep your feelings for him. Then it will become a cycle, like nowhere else to go, just like you're stuck with him, with that feeling that will never grow at all. A stagnant dead water -- rotten, lifeless. You'll be rejected twice, the third time, maybe more than that. Until you loose your heart, your personality, your character, yourself. 

If you're not strong enough to get away from this blackhole, you'll get eaten by it alive and you'll be lost inside yourself. You'll be in the midst of an ugly truth that cannot be erased. However, on the other hand, if you were able to fight this rogue heart and redeemed your self-respect, the fulfillment is astounding. You'll be wiser, you'll be extra careful and you'll know how to identify a chameleon.

We can't easily identify them, we're not sure who they are, or what they look like. But one thing is for sure, they're here and they're watching us. It could be the one sitting beside you, or you just don't know, maybe... you're one of them.

"The darkest soul can't be found in hell, they walk amongst us, pretending to be one of us."